Just a general update. Also, warning for strong language.
I haven't updated much in the past month or so and I apologize for that. The past month has been really hard. I never really went through heartbreak or anything, but this last relationship really fucked me up. I haven't been happy in a month and I have been crying the entire time. Everyday for a month straight I have cried. But I just can't handle crying anymore.
I won't lie, it hurts. It hurts like a bitch. This was my longest, best, and healthiest relationship I have ever been in. And it hurts to know that I lost it because of several reasons. And you know, I will admit, it was sort of my fault. I kept arguing with my then boyfriend. Over everything. And in retrospect: I should've been a little less abrasive. I admit it, I was wrong. I was so in the wrong with that relationship and I regret it. I do.
I have reflected on the relationship I had with my, now ex, boyfriend. And I miss everything about the relationship. Despite the arguments, it was happy. And I'm not going to bullshit any of you readers, yes, I wanted to kill myself because the breakup came at literally the worst possible time (centered around the miserable even of my dog dying and the happiest time of my best friend's life). I have been having a rough time getting back to school, too. I owe my school a substantial amount of money to get my transcripts.
In the last few weeks, I have sold an ugly old toy and two pairs of shoes I don't wear anymore on eBay. And I bought my first piece of Japanese brand (a blue Tutuha dress). I will be taking pictures when I receive it. I also bought a few accessories.
But I do have my eyes on my next possible brand purchases.
Thanks for reading guys!
Also here are some songs/videos I have been obsessed with;